- Inner Child“You’re like a six year old.” This hasn’t been the first comment I have heard like this within the past few days. Maybe it’s the universe continuously pointing out the amount of…
- GrowFrom the Earth we sprouted. Mother, we may try to remember. She will keep us strong and grounded. For the future, has yet to be written.
- FlawsWe all grew up watching movies. The ones that grasp our attention and reel us in for hours on end. The characters living a grand life, and telling a story (true or…
I haven’t written in a long time. I will apologize in advance for my incorrect grammar and run on sentences. Truth is I used to really enjoy writing. It was an outlet that I used throughout my life, along with creating art, and making music. The past few years I have fallen out of those habits that worked really well for me. Many new habits started to consume my life, some for the better and some for the worse.
Recently I have felt my life slow down.
You know, we are more connected to nature than most people would think? In nature everything flows. The storms come and mix things all up, the universe is there to repair. I learned this valuable lesson in my Oceanography class. You know we are more connected to nature than most people would think? We have created a storm with man made plastic. There are 5 main ocean gyres on our planet. Ocean gyres are systems of ocean currents that are formed by the wind and the earths rotation. It is also known as the ocean conveyor belt. This is essential to how the ocean receives nutrients for the ecosystem. These areas of stagnant waters are perfect for plankton to grow, and plankton is the base of the marine food chain. Plankton get their energy directly from the sun. Everything eats plankton and it is distributed by the ocean currents. Now since plastic has been around the currents are trapping plastics inside these stagnant gyres. Theres nowhere for the trash to go so the plankton tries to filter it and many microplatics remain in the plankton. Therefore disrupting the ENTIRE food chain. Including for ourselves.
But anyways… sorry that was a rant I know…
I have recently found that I can look at my emotions and built up trauma in the same way as the ocean gyres.
I mean, there’s a reason why my name literally means “Of the Sea.”
Right? 😉 haha
I feel that stagnant water, just like the ocean gyres inside of me. This stagnant part of my life can start to collect trash. I would usually just continue and not let the trash bother me, but again it’s in stagnant water. The trash won’t seem to move, no matter how much I shovel it around it just keeps growing and growing. The trash has become unavoidable if I want to continue to live my life how I want.
If I don’t find a way to make this built up trash a useful source for myself to grow, how will I flow? I will most likely end up tripping over my mess, sleeping next to cups of moldy tea, drive around in a trashed car. Emotions to me feel like the ocean. It’s now very unpredictable. Trauma and pain feel like the trash the plankton is feeding on. I have broken these pieces down for years. I kept them inside of me and tried my hardest to pack them down without speaking a word.
Well now its coming out. It’s what I need to do to grow.
This will make many people uncomfortable. For whatever reason people don’t life facing their own truths.. People like to hide, and pretend for you while. They want to entertain their own narratives.
We don’t see those huge ocean gyres filled with our garbage from “our world.” It feels miles and miles away. However, I can guarantee that when you walk on the beach you will see mini pieces of trash that the ocean has condensed.
We have chosen as a human race to try and ignore our problems with ourselves, those around us, and our home.
The way that I view the world has flipped since I have taken that Oceanography class. It has completely changed my life. I hope the next time you walk next to the tide you are even more able to look inside yourself and listen to the guidance of what’s in front of you for your own personal growth.
Stay tuned for more.
-Missy
Little look into the life and mind of Missy 